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THANKS EVERYONE SO MUCH FOR MAKING IT ON SAT! i mean its okay if you guys left early, i had so much freaking fun. My crave for volleyball is now better thanks to ramsay, krish, kat and naba! Wowee. Super fun. I really wanna go again just to play volleyball there. its damn shiok. Wow, sunday was like the best. Thanks for wishing me, i seriously was damn touched by everyone wishes, including his. Thanks so much. Then church was kinda fun... i guess. and and grandma's house, OMG, THE BEST LAH. i mean it was a bit awkward and all, but i loved it. the cake was perfect, thanks guys :D and then off to PARKWAY. OMG. SUPER EXCITED AND I DID IT. ITS TURQUOISE. FUCKING NICE. I love it like hell. On monday, about 3/4s of the school knew about it thanks to JAMIE BIG MOUTH. FUCK YOU BITCH. omg, yeah. then joan wanted to do it today, tuesday. ohoh, mrs chew says that on fri we all can wear cny clothes, like last year :D YAY. STUPID YEO LAY. I BET SHE WAS THE ONE WHO SAID THAT WE HAVE TO WEAR COVERED SHOES. I should just come in spaghs and see what they do about it! :D love you :D

Today wasn't tthat amazing i knew you were fighting hard inside. I'm sorry. I actually shouldn't have let go, i'm fucking in love with you and i dont know why. Tomorrow wouldn't be as amazing without you :(  Your mum is adorable. I miss you already, love pearl

After every wednesday, you make me regret staying back and waiting, but then again, i wanted it to happen. But, i want the after effect too! Don't you even feel anything. I mean if nikki weren't there, i'm sure things would have been way different, in a bad way. Either we wont talk at all, or we'll talk but about pretty awkward things. Then you say, i love you, stop it. Stop what! You're the one doing all this to me, i just take the bus home. Doesn't mean you get to sleep on my shoulder or like hold my hand. I mean, i really dont mind it, but why do that??? That is what confuses me. There is something you are hiding, and i wanna know what. If not, i'll keep guessing, and this time, i'll really piss people off.

I THINK YOU HAVE LIKE SOME SERIOUS MENTAL PROBLEM. KK, its my birthday thing on sat. I really hope you can come, then again, it will be a bit funny. Cos that new girl will be there, nat and grace. YAY. PFFFT. oh well, i cant jut say things like that, its not definitely true lah :D

mmm, TOMORROW IS WEDNESDAY! i wonder what will happen tomorrow. I hope he doesn't take the bus with us. Ruin everything. Aiya, will have to stay back dont know how long, SAVRAH! BRING IHSS TOMORROW :D yayy, I've got peter sau tomororw. yay, my porno gay teacher!

ahh, can't wait for tomorrow AND SATURDAY! and omg, mirza. I'm so sorry! AHHH, kk, i'll tell her uh.. by this week k! haha, stupid smoker.

ITS 4.03 AND I CAN'T SLEEP, WITHOUT YOU NEXT TO ME, I TOSS AND TURN LIKE THE SEA.

Shitt, i have to learn to be friends with some people who i cannot like. And i will not. ahh, why did you lie to me krish! KK, but havng dinner at thad's place is really different than going into the lanning place. hmm. Tody was such a crap day. chinatown sucked. then the kebab thing was super gross, china kebabs. then the freaking ceiling collapsed. IA was so stupid, didn't do anything (BALL WITH RAMSAY AND NISHOK WAS FUN!). Went for theatre Peter Sau. Bloody gay. We did handstands, my shirt kinda came off and his dick was rubbing against my stomach, sick like hell. Then romit went and flashed his entire underwear. Then the teachers suggested flashing his and claims he sees naked women ALL the time. He nearly killed laiyin ( not really) and he talked to us for 20mins. I TIMED :D Yeah, got dismissed early. Nikki says she was playing lan with like thad and loads of people. So i wanted to wait. SO anjali and celeste wanted to take the bus too. SO they waited for pankaj. And pankaj was waiting for me, and iw as waiting for nikki. somehow, all of them decided to go for dinner. i decided not to. Then i saw thad and he asked if i was going home i said yeah. Then i decided to join them for dinner. ANd i met clar and pankaj and kat. We stood at the traffic light for like 20 mins. Krish, ramsay, thad and nat were at the cathay smoker zone talking. Some kind of dispute. SO we decided to walk over and ask them what the fuck is going on. And Clat told me some ver shocking news on the way there. Then they said they were'nt having dinner. Ramsay and his sister walked away. I actually wanted to take the bus with thad and pank, but well. i guess i changed my mind. I just walked off with ramsay as well. Then we walked to one bus stop. then we walked to the one far far away. Then we saw krish and thad walk into the lan place. Walked for bloody long until we found the bustop. Ramsay was obviously pissed about something, he usually wouldn't be that serious. Went onto the super crowded bus, killer legs. Ramsay played with my phone, disturbed a few people. I got of at his stop with NABA and took 14 home. then i messaged krish asking what happened and if it was him i saw going to lan. and he said, dinner, going home now. Obviously, he was hiding something. HE told kat he was going to thad's place for dinner? And why thad didn't text me back to ask why i left, I dont know. well, he doesn't text very often. STupid day. Told my mum about the ceiling collapsing, she wants to write into the school. AH, fell asleep on the bed till 1030, had a shower. i'm awake like crazy. help, i'm drowing.

I spoke to you yesterday, Shucks, could have totally seen you today! :D haha, doesn't matter. Looking forward to next wednesday! hello new friend. My name is susan fok. Thanks for depriving me of pens during chem! :D Stupid dance. I hate you!

I'm glad our schools dont check our blogs. Marga got suspended, Soon ash and all are gonna get it too. haha, Poor kids.

I remembered last time, when clar's blog was found by miss wang or something. Schools are all damn kiasu, with our personal lives, THEY CAN'T STOP US FROM MAKING FRIENDS WITH PEOPLE FROM THE BOOKSHOP. STUPID NON-SOTA TEACHERS.  I'VE BEEN IN THE FUCKING SCHOOL LONGER THAN YOU. SHUTUP STUPID TEACHERS. I HATE YOU I HATE YOU. I want back goodman :( I really miss lofty, justin, everything about year one. although i was a loser then, i loved it :) I really want it back :( :( i'm gonna cry.

HEY YOU, i'm gonna fight for it. Which one will you let go, will it make you complete? (i'm listening to this song now, and it suits)  I really want to re-live year one :( :( I should have done a better job. Thanks Deanna. I have to meet you one day.

NICOLELUNAAAAAA, OMGG, I WANNA SEE YOU AGAIN. DO SOME SHOOT, HMM, MAYBE IN SERAWAK? :D HEH. I HOPE ARISTOTLE GETS IT :D ALL OF US! :D omgg, i love you so much, i wanna see you. my b'day k! :D

Whywhywhy did you have to complain bout your group. Now you changed. What the fuck is your problem. Acting like you care. You like her, i know. Dont have to lie. You said you wanted to make up for what you did. You killing yourself isn't gonna be enough. I want you to answer my questions at least. If you were in my group, i will ask you so many questions, you will cry. Stop smiling. I cant look at you. When i do, you look back, and i can't take my eyes away. I've been able to pull away, but one day, i won't be able to do. Please, stop hurting me. Stop. Stop. I want you. Please. I dont care what you do to me. I need to get over my fucking triangle. I'm 2/3s done. If i cant get over you, i'll go back to square one. Please, stop hurting me. I must move on. But sometimes, i need to move backwards in order to move forward. Why won't you help me. If you care so much, then help me. I dont care. A month. Thats all i'm asking for. Of course if it were longer it would be better. Why am i so desperate.

Today, I saved $1.50 and by doing so, wasted an hour of my time just to talk to you. Yup. I planned it in my head. Hoping we could talk. Fuck your stop. Who ask you live so close to school. Who asked that stupid man not to change seats.  Stupid balding grey head fat man. I wanna talk to my friend. Please move in. THANKS GAY SHIT.

Hey there, you are a lousy liar. And when you’ve been caught, you stop answering. I don’t wanna tell you these things in your face, because I’ll put you in a difficult position. See, and you weren’t looking at the building, oh wait. What building. Say something. Say something. You tell me lah. I have all my questions. You have all the answers. I want to talk to you. Well, I had the chance, I blew it. Nevermind, next week :D I’ll save $1.50, Waste another hour of my life, and talk to you. Or, I’ll bus with you tomorrow. I wanna talk to you in school. Joan, Kat. Please give me that strange thing you did again. I need stupid ideas. I wanna clear things up.

Thanks SENIOR joan for being a good listener and keeper of secrets :D HAHAHHAHA